Been there, gp.  The grief was so painful, I often think I should have jumped in on top of the casket once it was lowered, and let them bury me too.  I can tell you that you will outlive that pain, it will over the years recede to a manageable condition, but it will take quite a while.  I watched her go down in front of me for 18 months, and it took part of me with her.  I'd only thought I'd had my heart broken, but this was a terrible yardstick that dwarfed any previous pains.

My Very Best to You, and you hang in there.

JW

Thanks, Joey.  It's nice to know at least somebody understands...and you do, really.  Now, let's get on with some BASS PLAYIN'!!!!! (Lookin' for a smiley of some sort....!)